Testimonials

So here goes ...
1961 I was born ..in Montreal Canada ..

My mother was mentally ill with Schizophrenia..in the 1960 ties they called it manic depressive ..and treated my mom with every pill they could Try ..most just got her high
We moved 38 times before I was ten ,,my father left when I was 2 and left my Mom with 4 children and no money . My Mother met a alcoholic that had lost 9 children of his own to CAS. For Abuse .
I will not get into the graphic details of the ages 2 to 14teen but mostly they were filled with abuse and hunger ..
At 14 being a alcoholic myself by this time living back in Montreal with my mom and now my little sister that I took care of .,..

Mom couldn't ...at 12 I was enrolling myself in School...cashing my moms welfare ,cooking getting my sister to school.. I was again over whelmed .
Drinking every day ...no one at School knew .

At 14 I went to the doctor because now I was sleeping with man after man to find love ,to get the pill .he examined me and said " hey you can get pregnant your uterus is too scarred from being raped so early ,,,no baby will hold .." I had 4 children before I was 18 teen . One I kept till he was 3.then put up for adoption . Two were given up at birth and the 4th I had at 19 was married and kept !

At 14 I ran away to live in the Eastern Townships of Quebec about 60 miles from Montreal ..

I met a 19teen year old who beat me .and I stayed with Mark 2 and a half years ..I got pregnant for my 1st child and he kicked me out ,..I was 15 and pregnant and homeless..

Then I returned to Montreal and met a alcoholic Keith who I lived with for about a year ,..
We both returned to Bedford to be near my mom ...and little sister ..so some of this time is fuzzy ...

At 17 teen both a ex boyfriend and I were homeless again time 4 for me ....and after being outside for weeks a friend said " hey their is this lady who lives in St ARmand Quebec 20 minutes away ...and she will take you in and give you free food and a clean bed "
Even though I never believed them we went and it was dark when we got to her door ...she asked what we wanted and I said "I was told you would give us a free meal and a bed ....she said of course and welcomed us in ....
Her home smelled of coffee,....we went strait to a room...and she showed us a bed ...the next mourning we came down to eat I asked "hey lady what do you want for the food ? "remember every one always took from me . She said the price of food is that I can pray for you ...well I knew I was past payers but whatever ...

She laid her hand on my head and said "Jesus I clam this one for you and the kingdom of God "
2 years later I got saved when I was 19teen , I went to Rhode Island so my Mom could go on a retreat ..
I said ill go but I want nothing to do with God ..ok;...
They lady name Angie who let me stay in her house woke me up Sunday mourning and said hey price for the night your coming to church .
I was angry ,tired and still drunk , but went anyway ..
Was shocked the 1st time I saw what a Pentecostal church was .
That night she came into my room and prayed for me I threatened to hurt her if she didn't stop ..she pray in tongues and and said no God wont let you...after a few minutes I had a one on one meeting in that room with GOD..that I can recount minute by minute ...:)

I have been walking with Jesus 30 years..and he has used me to lead a couple of people to him and a few hurting teens to inner healing ..that only he can give . People see me and say what a joyful person you are ,you always look on the bright side ...yes because God healed me the night he forgave me ...

I was without my mom from the age of 19teen to 49nine except a few times ...so times it was ok sometimes she thought she was invisible..
And made no sense .
But I continued to believe that God would heal and restore our relationship..
About one and a half years ago I was able to move Mom to my home town ..just blocks away..
God gave us one year of 2 times a week visits ..some times more ...

My mom by this time was obese and was in a wheel chair ,but I got her quite a few times into my church ..
She loved it ...she so loved Our Pastor , he got to lay hands on her a few times ...

In the last year of her life she loved me like a Mother should ,every time I went to visit she would tell me how much she loved me and how proud she was . She said many times how sorry she was I told her that she didn't have to say she was sorry that I didn't have to forgive her only God could do that ...and if he could for give me then she was no worse ..
She got to see me worship ..and that was a miracle you have no idea ...and she was inches from the alter I worship at ever week...again Miracle.
She died last year on Jan 29th...and a few days before she died my Pastor and hers was able to touch her in the hospital and pray her ready for the father ...she didn't have a funeral she had a celebration of life..:) they played her favorite worship songs ..you have no idea what a miracle that my moms heart and mind were clear for that last year ...what a gift from my Savior..

I stopped being a alcoholic the 1st time I got pregnant , at 15teen but drank on weekends ,Both my husband and myself have been free from alcohol since 12 years ago and even 2 packs a day cigarette habit since 10 years about ...
Statistics say I should be dead God says I'm in her
Statistics say I should on drugs God says I will give her the Holy Spirit ....
Statistics say I should homeless I have worked at the same place 6 years..
Statistics say I should because of my background I should be ?? God says I delivered you